When it’s silent
All the memories rush back like a flip-book
I get a quick glimpse of the past
Shifting through years of moments we shared together
My childhood chapter- I’m most fond of
But the one that really strikes a chord, is the last.
The day I made a surprise visit to see you
I can’t stop thinking about the way your face lit up when you realized it was me
The way you looked up at me while you laid in your bed, so peacefully
The way you extended your hand out to me
Reaching for me
I would give anything to be able to reach right back
To grab your hand again
I constantly watch that video of that day I spent with you
Not knowing at the time- it would be my last
I watch it like I’ve never seen it before and each time my heart breaks into a million pieces
I can feel my anxiety coursing through my veins like anesthesia
Just a rush of emotions
But I can’t sleep
Desperate and hurt, I grip the phone tight
Images replaying themselves over in my mind
I try and close my eyes to rest,but there they are
so vivid like the present
I get a sharp pain in my heart and then it sinks… deep
deep into the pit of my stomach and by morning I’m in a puddle of my tears
Just missing you
Just wishing I had more time